Ughhhhhhhhh. What a day.
It's amazing how quickly the nasty side of real life can totally get you down, even after an amazing weekend.
Today I feel defeated. It was rough day at work, but I will not get into that, because I have read enough angry bloggers to know you should not blog about such things on a blog that can be traced back to you (aka anything on the internet, ever).
I've already cried twice tonight - once while watching Say Yes to the Dress (don't judge, it was emotional), and once while reading all of this Casey Anthony crap. And not like, angry or sad tears. It's not like I can't believe she was acquitted, because I totally can. It's just like... ugh. This world is so broken. That is my only sentiment from this whole case. One of my friends said it best, on (where else) Facebook:
"If she is truly innocent, may she find some peace. If she is not, may our Judge have mercy on her, as He does for us all. Above all, we have peace in knowing that her innocent child laughs in the arms of our Savior."
And that is what really gets me - that in spite of knowing that she's with Jesus (laughing! and smiling! or whatever the equivalent of what we'll do in Heaven is), life is just so hard here. And so heartbreaking. And I don't wish evil upon Casey - I just hurt for her. My heart breaks for her if she's innocent, and my heart breaks for her if she's not. Maybe that's not a popular opinion, but I just... ugh. That's where I am.
And on top of that, I'm listening to one, sad Bon Iver song over and over, which is like the equivalent of listening to Eye of the Tiger while getting ready to work out. It's just making my sadness even deeper. But, there you have it. I keep pressing the "repeat" button over and over and I can't stop myself.
I fully intended to have this, my first post in forever, be a report on the truly joyful experiences and wonderful people in my life, but.... ummm, oops? I'll save that for another time.
